My favourite hobbies include taking naps and drinking wine, but if I could choose one, I would go for a run.
Yes, that’s right. A run.
This coming from someone that absolutely hated running. Well let’s be honest, when you are overweight and have never run in your life, running is hella hard. It’s awful. Everything hurts and you wish you could die, but you don’t. You just gasp for air and gag on your lungs that have been shredded to pieces.
I always admire people that run and make it look like poetry in motion. When I started running, I was ripping open portals to hell and praying out loud. I couldn’t run to the mailbox without literally dying.
But I was desperate. Desperate for escape from not just the extra weight I was carrying, but the stresses of life and the responsibilities that come with being a mum and a wife. I personally think as woman we tend to lose our identities in whatever stage of life we are in.
We become that thing. A wife, a mother, our careers, and we give our all to that. But what about you? Yes I am a mother and a wife, but I am also just Catherine. And Catherine needs as much nurturing and care as the other primary relationships in my life.
And that is what running is for me.
Its self love. Its Catherine time. It’s the time of the day where I can unpack my mind and heart on a run and sometimes pretend to physically run away from the crap in my life. Don’t worry, I always come home. That’s where the wine is. Running has given me back my identity. It’s empowering to know that I can run 21kms in the most awful weather. It straightens my spine knowing I survived those track intervals.
Running has most definitely changed me….
I am braver
I care less about what others think
I believe in myself
My capacity for life has increased
I love myself more
I am hotter than ever
I feel alive and I can breathe.
So as much as I love naps and wine, those reset me for a moment. Running resets my life. It puts everything in place and in perspective and remind me that I am capable of much more than I give myself credit for.
Go for a run and find yourself.